Last night, I had midnight questions. You know, the nagging kind that race through your mind and chase away rest.
Do I give up or keep going?
Am I headed the right direction? And which way is that?
While I wrestled out some resolution, past experience has proven that at sun-up, it’s better to hold off on the midnight-fueled momentum that screamed QUIT. Midnight answers rarely sound as awesome at 7am.
Rather than run wild into emotion-induced, it-sounded-good-in-my-head decisions, I chose to slow down and with a clear-er head [and a bit of caffeine], bring those questions to God.
God will make Himself known in the middle of the ordinary.
Instead of googling “scripture when you need direction,” [I know you’ve done this] I simply opened my bible to the book of Hosea* that I’ve been “steadily studying” [a.k.a. it’s taken me 2-months to complete a 17-day study, but still.].
While God’s word is far from ordinary and His Spirit moves in ways I’d never describe as simple, I didn’t expect to find my word of direction here today. I stand corrected—and ever in awe.
Sow for yourselves righteousness; reap steadfast love;
break up your fallow ground, for it is the time to seek the Lord,
that He may come and rain righteousness upon you.
Hosea 10:12 ESV
Fallow: [fal-oh] plowed and harrowed but left unsown for a period of time. U Synonyms: uncultivated, unplanted, unsown, dormant, quiet, slack, slow, stagnant.
From the outside looking in, this verse is all tangled up in God’s endless plea to His chosen people to get with it—to remember, return, and be restored by His perfect love.
To my heart, this word of truth confirmed that God not only heard my midnight questions, but He has heard all the questions I’ve asked over the past few harrowing years, in which I most definitively felt “plowed” by people, places and things.
Quiet years that led me to seek safe corners to heal.
Inactive years that left me guarded in pursuing His purpose for me.
Dormant years that felt unsown, stagnant and slow, slow, slow.
Years that were at times SO hard, but resulted in SUCH necessary transformation, growth, and greater intimacy with Jesus that I wouldn’t trade them for anything.
This word nestled in the middle of chapter and verse was my directive from God to keep seeking His steadfast love. To keep sowing what is real and true, keep breaking through my fears and stepping off the sidelines because I. Am. Still. Useful.
Seek the Lord and He will come.
Sweet friend…maybe you’re crying out for answers at midnight, at dawn, smack dab in the middle of the day, everyday. Maybe you wonder if God hears, if He has a word for you, if there is promise or direction in the harrowing trial before you. Maybe you feel useless, weary, or shelved.
Can I encourage you in this: seek the Lord and He will come.
Here’s the thing: “The” answers didn’t unfurl from heaven today. I didn’t get a road map. There were no miracles happening in my living room. And you know what? That’s okay. Because with my bible in my lap and His word at my fingertips, God met me in the middle of His truth, and I am better for it. You will be too.
God met me in my seeking and He will you. He always does. He always will. It’s who He is…steady, constant, wise, and so, so willing.
If we WILL seek, He WILL answer. And so we should, don’t you think? ♥
By His steadfast love,
* If you’re looking for rooted in truth bible studies, check out She Reads Truth and the She Reads Truth app. I’ve found the study’s simple to complete on my awkward schedule, yet full of authentic encouragement and real-life application.
You can also find these words linked up at my favorite spots: Purposeful Faith (#RaRaLinkup), Holly Barrett (#testimonytuesday), Jennifer Dukes Lee (#tellhisstory), Holley Gerth (#coffeeforyourheart), Kristin Hill Taylor (#threewordwednesday) and 3dlessons4life (#thoughtprovokingthursday) .