When Sunday Feels Broken

I used to hate Sundays. It’s a sad but honest truth. In a season that seemed to stretch on forever, I dreaded Sunday morning. Dragging myself out of bed, I’d force my best face forward to enter a sanctuary that felt anything but. I went to church because I knew I had to, but no part of me wanted to be there.

Sunday felt broken.

My heart ached from what I had seen, what I knew, and for what I expected, but had not found. There were uphill, bear down, gut-it-out moments that I could not have endured with anything but uphill, bear down, gut-it-out faith.

I didn’t always feel God, but I knew no matter how hard faith felt, truth was bigger, God was greater, and rescue was imminent. And because He is ever faithful, He answered every please-show-up-for-me Sunday morning prayer.

God was there—because I was where He needed me to be.

But the Lord stood by me and strengthened me,
so that through me the message might be fully proclaimed.
2 Timothy 4:17 ESV

I didn’t understand then, and still don’t have all the answers now, but from the downhill side of that uphill climb, I want to proclaim this message to you…your rescue will come.

God is an expert at resurrecting Sundays; He’s an expert at resurrecting you.

Jesus’s path to the perfect Sunday was anything but easy. You might feel like you’re staring down the battle of a lifetime, but by shed blood, an unfathomable degree of love, and with great grace your journey won’t even come close to what our Savior endured. But transformation and refining fire can be an excruciating cross to bear.

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Jesus has been where you are and He knows where you’re going.

There is no one more able to right the wrongs you’re enduring than Christ. There is no one more equipped to fight alongside you than He. There is no one more willing to strengthen, enable, and rewrite the darkness for light than the Savior who gave His all to offer you His everything.

The Lord will rescue me from every evil deed
and bring me safely into His heavenly kingdom.
2 Timothy 4:18 ESV

You might feel stretched in ways you can’t imagine recovering from, but God promises to deliver you safely. And dear friend, your rescue won’t be temporary, but instead everlasting.

If that seems too long to wait, cling to the promise that not only does God not leave you, but He is faithful to reward your perseverance. His benefits are soul deep as He expands the borders of your faith, builds in you great character, and offers generously that which will allow you to press on another day—hope.

Sunday is my favorite day of the week now. There is broad space to walk and pure, hands-held-high praise in worship. My heart knows a degree of gratitude in excess to the trial I experienced—because God always leaves us better than He finds us.

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Out of darkness, hurt, shame—God heals, restores and rescues. Call out to Him, bring Him your brokenness, and He’ll bring you your Sunday.


 You can also find these words linked up at my favorite spots:  Jennifer Dukes Lee (#tellhisstory)Holley Gerth (#coffeeforyourheart), and Kristin Hill Taylor (#threewordwednesday).

42 thoughts on “When Sunday Feels Broken

  1. Sometimes going to church and reading our Bibles feel like going through the motions, but as y ou say, God has us where He wants us, and better times are around the corner. I always like to remind myself:

      1. Almost left me with a cliffhanger, Betsy. It can be hard to wonder what’s around that corner, but yes and amen – God is working greater things on our behalf and leaving us stronger in the end. Thanks for commenting, Betsy.

  2. Hi Tiffany, I’m so glad I found you! I enjoyed hearing your story of heartbreak and redemption on Sundays. I loved that you emphasize that in obedience there is healing. We’ve got to persevere and take those steps of faith, often before the feelings follow along. In doing so, we find God’s resurrection power. You have a beautiful heart and I looking forward to more posts in the future!

  3. Again, thank you for being transparent Tiffany. I am too thankful that Jesus goes before us, knows where we will be going and makes provision along the way when we keep holding tight to him. Have a great weekend!

  4. Rich, inspiring and encouraging sentiments to brighten up the scenery of my dreary Ohio day. Thanks, Tiffany. I loved this.
    Happy Thursday …and looking forward to Sunday…
    Megs

  5. My sweet friend, your words are a precious reminder that God sees us; He does care and He has a plan for our lives! I know many who feel trapped by their circumstances, and your words here speak truth and hope! Sharing this for others.
    Big blessings to you!

  6. Tiffany,
    Such a beautiful post that points to our Jesus being bigger than any situation. I’ve already scheduled this to share on my Facebook page and I hope God delivers it into the hands of just who needs to read it. So many of us struggle in different ways and whether it’s due to pain that causes us to wonder exactly where God is or it is the Church itself that has hurt us – Sundays can either be beautiful or broken.
    Blessings and smiles,
    Lori
    p.s. I’m super excited to be starting a link-up on Monday called #MomentsofHope. I’d be honored to have you join me!

    1. Hi Lori. Thank you so much for sharing the words forward. It’s my prayer too that they reach the heart in need. So grateful for our Jesus and that He is our overseer and healer. Blessings back to you and yes, I’ll come visit the link-up. :)

  7. I’m so sorry you had to go through such pain, Tiffany. Thank you for being so open and honest about it. Also for this comforting truth – “There is no one more able to right the wrongs you’re enduring than Christ. There is no one more equipped to fight alongside you than He. There is no one more willing to strengthen, enable, and rewrite the darkness for light than the Savior who gave His all to offer you His everything.” Blessings and hugs to you!

  8. I have really struggled with Sundays for a few years now, being part of a large church, as well as dealing with some difficult circumstances. This Sunday was the first service of a new church plant I am part of (from the same church) and it was so different. I felt properly connected for the first time in ages and almost cried all through the service because it felt like I’m where I’m meant to be. Your description of God “resurrecting Sundays” feels like exactly what happened, but I also had the sense that the struggle was necessary to get to where I needed to be.

    1. I’m so glad you’ve found a new place to be connected with the body – that’s so important. I remember our first Sunday in our new church and that same emotional response…like I could finally breathe again. And I couldn’t agree more – God allows us to walk through difficult things to get us to just the place we need to be. Praying many more gratitude filled Sundays for you. Thanks for sharing a piece of your story here, Carly. Hugs.

  9. Thank you Tiffany for the honesty here. I remember Sundays when they were not my favorite and you are right God gets us through and grows us to a better place as we trust Him and let Him work in us. Thanks for this reminder!

  10. One thing I can after all my years, is that the struggle is made me who I am. I wouldn’t know my need for God and I wouldn’t be where I am spiritually. The struggle is always worth it in the end. So good, friend.

  11. Amen Tiffany… I think we’ve all had those days when feelings try to deter us from God’s purposes and truth. I’m so sorry you had to go through that season, but what a blessing you gained on the other side of it and being able to share with us. ♥

    1. So true, Heather – I’m a “feelings” girl so I know those days well. Just as you say – we need to sift those feelings through truth and sort out what is real. It wasn’t an easy season, but I’m grateful for the opportunity to encourage others with the truth God has shown me. Thanks for visiting, friend. xo

  12. Tiffany, beautiful post. I think there are many out there who are feeling the way you felt about Sunday mornings. But so much THIS: “God is an expert at resurrecting Sundays; He’s an expert at resurrecting you.” God indeed is the only one who can resurrect. One of my favorite quotes is by Clarence W. Hall: “Easter says you can put death in the grave, but it won’t stay there.”

  13. We went through a painful church split years ago and we felt compelled to stay when all of our friends left and such nasty things were said by people who we once had close relationships with. It was horribly painful and I can totally understand going through a time when you had to force yourself to go to church. As with you, God brought us through that time and did a lot of healing in the process, and that is a reminder that we need to always be moving forward toward God even in times when we don’t ‘feel’ like it.

    1. I’m so glad that God brought you through, Karen. There is hope in that testimony for so many still walking that path. The pain is unique – especially when those “nasty things” come from folks who should repel them. But God is a God who heals and restores and in the end – that’s the message that is lasting. Faith is bigger than feelings, amen! Thanks for sharing your heart and joining the conversation.

  14. Tiffany, I’m so sorry you went through such a hard, hard time. So thankful for this truth: “God was there—because I was where He needed me to be.” And that your Sundays are no longer broken.

    Sundays are not always easy for me, attending alone (my husband isn’t a believer) with my kids (3 and 6), who have recently decided they also don’t like church. It’s not the same as your broken Sundays, but I’m thankful the same truth applies/applied to us both. He always shows up for me too: often in ways I least expect it too (e.g. once placing a man at the church gates as I had to leave early once again…With me angrily giving God a piece of mind! And here was the man I’d prayed for a week earlier on the streets, healed! I then understood why I had to leave at that very moment!!).

    Thank you for sharing so vulnerably and blessing with your encouragement.

    1. Anna – you are in the thick of it, friend. It sounds like while God is not only faithful to walk beside you, He is giving you proof that He is moving and working. Press on, friend – for those kids, who you get to make do all sorts of stuff they “don’t like,” and for your husband who can be ministered to in powerful ways because you are living out faith day in and day out.

      I’m always amazed at what God can accomplish behind the scenes – when we can barely muster up hope, He is moving mountains on our behalf. He is at your side, Anna – still, always. Thank YOU for sharing a piece of your story here. You are the blessing.

  15. My Sundays have been broken for a couple of years now. I was on staff at a church for over 10 years and was laid off. I am realizing that ministry was all I knew, it was the biggest part of me. I am having to learn how “to be” in His presence and “not do”, to release my hurt and pain to Him in the process has been hard.

    1. We have a lot in common, Barbie. I know exactly what that “be” vs. “do” feels like. There was great healing though in just stepping back from that “doing” place and “being” God’s girl – sitting, leaning in, and learning what He needed to show me, vs. doing something. While I think I’ll be forever changed by the path I walked, God has refined my faith and increased my dependence on Him in ways that I’m grateful for – and in that, He brought me new things to do. Praying for your journey, friend – don’t hesitate to reach out if I can be of encouragement to you. Hugs.

    1. It really grieves my heart to know that others are walking the path – and for some that means doing it alone. I think that’s why God continues to unravel pieces of this story and prompts me to share the hope that is found in Him alone. He rewrites our stories in the most beautiful ways. Thanks for cheering me on – so grateful for your love and friendship.

  16. What a revealing Post Tiffany! I am ashamed to admit it but before the stroke; I had to dust my bible off or look under the bed to retrieve it before heading to church on Sundays. I am thankful for God’s grace in now allowing me to join and commit to a Bible teaching church! I look forward to worshiping my Savior and being taught God’s word. My Sundays are no longer “broken” as Jesus continues to restore my heart. Thanks for sharing your heart here today. Have a wonderful week and blessings to you and your my friend!

    1. I’m so glad that you’ve found your way to that sweet spot with the Lord. And no shame, Horace – you didn’t squander the trial you endured but saw it as a hinge moment to transform your faith – to be transformed. Always grateful for the grace of a God who welcomes us back into the fold – even through our broken Sundays. Blessings to you as well.

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