I live on my tip-toes. Stretching, striving, longing to have a look ahead. I want my ducks lined up in a neat and tidy row and if there are more ducks coming, I want to know when they’ll arrive so I can carve out a special, little spot just for them.
I’m a ten-steps ahead planner, a check it off the list to-doer, a clean the house, fold the laundry, load the dishwasher so I can breathe kind of girl. I don’t like wrenches, interruptions, or uncertainty. Grace under pressure is not my tag line, no pain-no gain will never be my motto, and when there’s heat, I tend to get out of the kitchen.
I don’t covet what you have, I envy how you got there. I want the wisdom, experience, and hindsight that come from a well-worn path of victorious faith. I want the finish line and the “well done” and if I’m honest, I’d be okay skipping the heavy lifting. I’ll put my head down and do the work, but I want to know that the sweat on my brow, the butterflies in my belly, and the wringing of my hands are not in vain.
I will speak God to you, remind you that He is sovereign, sufficient, and fully able to bear your heaviest weight. I will encourage you to linger in His word, trust His promises, and seek Him first. I can preach, but I sometimes forget to practice…that the words He gives are not just to me, they are for me.
I forget to remember.
“Search for the Lord…continually. Remember His marvelous works which He has done,
His wonders, and the judgments of His mouth.” Psalm 105:4-5
God forced me to get off my toes. He asked me to plant my feet and stop trying to get a glimpse of what’s ahead. Instead, He said, look back and remember.
Now…we can’t change the past and lingering there wishing we could is futile. What-if-I-had, if-only, and should-have, is asking for a bushel of buried pain we should not dig up. But remembering, reflecting, and recounting His marvelous works, that is like mining for gold.
If you can’t feel God and you wonder if He still hears you. When you can’t see past the hour and tomorrow is just too much to bear. When the path ahead is uncertain and you need to know that He is still with you, take one look over your shoulder.
Remember what He has done.
The wonder of the promises He’s kept. The joy of the prayers He answered. The awe of His provision. Grace and favor you did not deserve, but that was lavished on you. Healing and protection. The road less traveled that turned into the perfect path.
The unexpected, unwelcome, and uncertain that were woven into His perfect will. People, plans, and purposes you cannot imagine having sought out, but now seem as if they were hand delivered and custom-carved for your life. Discipline that wounded then, but binds now. Sin you surrendered and the forgiveness that brought freedom.
The trials you would have tucked tail and run from that bore far reaching fruit. Good that was knit out of the awful. The awful that turned more awful right before it bloomed into something beautiful. Moments you felt weak that grew into the hours you felt strong, that transformed you into the conqueror you are today.
Remember. The same God who has done, will do. He will keep on answering. He will not stop providing. He has, He is, and He will continue healing, protecting, delivering, binding, transforming, and forgiving. He who started the work will finish it.
The beginning, the end, and everything in between are nestled perfectly in His capable, nail pierced hands. He secured our future, paid our debt, and is entitled to every yesterday, today, and tomorrow. I don’t get to snatch them back.
I don’t need to know the next 10-steps
when I know the One Who has walked them before me.
Look back. It made this finish-line-seeking, what’s-next-girl, slow her steps, lay down her binoculars, and kick off her running shoes. I have no idea what He has for me tomorrow, but my history has proven that His plans are good. His word proves that they always have been.
Apart from Him – I can do nothing. Seriously. I cannot imagine tackling this life without the relentless love and unfailing strength of my Savior.
With Christ – I can press on, push through, and walk forward in faith. When I remember what He has done for me I become the girl who conquers hard, seeks wisdom, leans into grace, trusts promises, and victoriously crosses finish lines. When I look back and see Him, I can put down the checklist, stop wringing my hands, and lay aside the burden of carrying tomorrow. Because He is good and that makes me want to be brave.
I will remember His marvelous works and remind myself that His words – these words – are for me.
These words are for you too. Remember, recount, marvel, stand in awe. Watch, wait, and believe that the same God that commanded the wind and waves, walked on the water, and went to the cross is the One Who works for you. The One who holds your today and carries your tomorrows.
Take one look over your shoulder – He is there.