Some things just don’t turn out the way you thought they would.
Sometimes our plans twist, bend, and turn in ways we could never have imagined.
Growing up, I was sure I’d have a corner office in New York City, staring out my window at the bustling city. At least that’s what I thought as I played bank teller in my bedroom. Turns out I got a corner office in a trailer in Riverside and my view consisted of a parking lot and medical office buildings. It was a corner office none the less.
The graduate degree I earned would most certainly take me out of the trailer and turn me into a top-floor executive making high-powered decisions, leading teams toward success, and bringing home the big bucks. Turns out God would call me to bring myself home, lay down my career goals, and be a stay at home mom.
A girl and a boy – those were my plans. Two babies would make the perfect family. Turns out God only wanted me to have one.
For ten years, I served in ministry, content and certain that the call on my life would remain untouched. God grabbed my plans, turned me in the opposite direction, gave me a shove, then closed and locked the door behind me. No going back.
“Write!” He said.
“Okay, that’s easy. I love words.”
Halt. Screech. S-T-O-P. Turns out this journey of words has been the single-most-difficult path I have ever traveled. It is wrought with unknown twists and turns, navigated while carrying arm loads of insecurities I didn’t even know I had. “Easy” is a foul, four letter word in our house.
Turns out, I have no regrets – well, there’s a few haircuts and one boy. :)
When I cannot see beyond the bend in the road, God is there taking the turn and paving the way. And when I’ve walked the path and look behind, questioning why things turned out different than I expected – God is there. In every twist, in every turn, He is refining, strengthening, and preparing me for the journey that lies ahead.
When we turn our lives over to God – when we hand Him our heart and surrender our will, He turns brokenness into beauty. He takes sin and selfishness, turning, transforming it into righteousness and willing sacrifice. He turns His face towards us, leans in and lays hold of our lives, taking our meager plans and weaving them into something beyond our wildest dreams.
Things don’t always turn out the way we plan. But for the grace of God, we go.
We lean. We look. We trust. We watch Him turn our lives into something beautiful.
The Lord brought to mind the refrain of this beautiful hymn:
Turn your eyes upon Jesus.
Look full in His wonderful face,
And the things of earth will grow strangely dim
In the light of His glory and grace.
*This post is a link up to Five Minute Friday – an incredible community of writers who take five minutes to pour out their hearts on the page, over one word. This weeks word is: turn. To learn more about this free write challenge, visit here.